I was scrolling back through all the things I had posted and I came across this.
"However, this does not mean that I do not try or that I do not make new friends. I think this idea of “ever-lasting friendships” can cause us to fear making friends. We fear getting close to people, because once someone knows intimate things about us they have the power to tell anyone they want. But what is life without friends? Despite all the hardships and tears friends have brought me , I do not regret any of it. I would do it all over again, because I would not be there person I am today if I had not gone through what I have. Every day I learn new things about myself, through the process of making friends.
I am writing this not to discourage you from making friends, but to encourage you to take chances! Make friends, talk to people, throw yourself out there and let yourself flourish. We as humans need companionship and it will only happen if you let it!”
I happen to be struggling with this right now and so I saw this and I reminded myself that friendship is worth it. It may never work out the way we planned and it may never life up to our loft, personal definition of “friend” but that should not deter us from trying.After all no one is perfect and to truly love and care about someone is to accept them and their imperfections.
Can I pretend that we are friends? Because I really want us to be friends, but I am not sure how you feel about it. Also to admit to myself that we are not friends makes me feel sad and alone. I am tired of people leaving me and I am not sure I can take another person doing it.
So please, can we pretend? Or even better, can you say that we are?
I always thought that I would be happy with my natural ‘beauty.’ But now that I have started to use makeup I have a hard time liking how I look without it.
I told myself I would never be dependent on makeup to feel pretty…but here I am…dependent on makeup to feel like I have a pretty face.