Sometimes I just get really tired of the life I have set up for myself. I have no best friend, in fact sometimes despite all the “friends” I have, I feel like I have no friends. I try to be nice to everyone, I know I am not perfect and that I fail, but I work hard to be a friend to anyone who needs one. And yet, when it is my turn and I need a friend, I feel like I have no one to turn to. Everyone has their own life and is so far away. I feel like trying to talk to them is an inconvenient for them. I try not to sit in self pity, but every now and then it feels really good to just cry! I tell myself that someday I will have all these things and I will have one person who really cares about me and will be willing to listen to what I have to say, ready to offer advice the second I finish talking. But I also know that life never works out the way you planned it and I cannot help but wonder what my future holds.